It's August already and I haven't been updating my blog for a while. I've been busy with work, but I'm glad to say that I haven't given up on doing creative things.
I've been taking another improv class since June. It's an advanced class so I feel even more like the dummy in class when compared to my classmates.
I think I may have regressed a little from the progress I made from the first class. I'm not sure why, but I haven't been that happy with what I've done so far. There are some small moments here an there, but in general I don't feel that proud of the work I've done.
It's hard to explain when I feel satisfied with my work because I rarely am, but the level of satisfaction has been lower. I know I am capable of doing better, so that's why I get frustrated with myself--for not being able to bring it out of myself.
My biggest challenges are:
1) Letting go. I am way too much of a control freak. After all those years of learning to suppress oneself, it's difficult to turn around and tell myself that it's okay to follow my instinct. This requires a lot of unlearning. Also, it's quite a scary thought to take risks and dare to fail, despite having supportive classmates.
2) Trust others. Ah, the trust issue. You have to trust your scene partners and I know they are much more skilled than I am, but I often I have a drive in me where I have to control the situation.
3) Overthinking. There's plenty to keep in mind and I read up on a lot of tips. Unfortunately, I have all these tips floating around and they clog up my mind, resulting in me not being able to react on the spot. Also, if I remember one tip, I forget the others.
Well, that's my assessment for now. I have three more sessions left so I still have some opportunities to play, but it's definitely hard work!
Here's a sketch I did on my ipad.
I've been taking another improv class since June. It's an advanced class so I feel even more like the dummy in class when compared to my classmates.
I think I may have regressed a little from the progress I made from the first class. I'm not sure why, but I haven't been that happy with what I've done so far. There are some small moments here an there, but in general I don't feel that proud of the work I've done.
It's hard to explain when I feel satisfied with my work because I rarely am, but the level of satisfaction has been lower. I know I am capable of doing better, so that's why I get frustrated with myself--for not being able to bring it out of myself.
My biggest challenges are:
1) Letting go. I am way too much of a control freak. After all those years of learning to suppress oneself, it's difficult to turn around and tell myself that it's okay to follow my instinct. This requires a lot of unlearning. Also, it's quite a scary thought to take risks and dare to fail, despite having supportive classmates.
2) Trust others. Ah, the trust issue. You have to trust your scene partners and I know they are much more skilled than I am, but I often I have a drive in me where I have to control the situation.
3) Overthinking. There's plenty to keep in mind and I read up on a lot of tips. Unfortunately, I have all these tips floating around and they clog up my mind, resulting in me not being able to react on the spot. Also, if I remember one tip, I forget the others.
Well, that's my assessment for now. I have three more sessions left so I still have some opportunities to play, but it's definitely hard work!
Here's a sketch I did on my ipad.
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